Stability

feeding like a mako shark.
life and laughter torn apart.
seems like you can only feel
until it seems a smile's unreal.
simply, it's insane if i
initiate a lullaby
to sing to sleep the numerals
and digits at the funeral.

not quite pathos, not quite pain.
think i'm feeling lost and bored again.
seems like you can only see
this grotesque parody of me.
i just want to get away
but now i need to take a stand.
it's like betraying all my friends
how do i make the hurting end?

i'm the one who keeps them fighting.
i'm the one in dreams delighting.
i'm the one enlightening.
the stable world is frightening.
i'm the one who finds a way
to help them end their endless day.

like i'm bursting at the breech.
i'll always practice what you preach.
seems like you can only see
this grotesque parody of me.
i just need to close my eyes
and maybe i will realize
guess i missed my mark.
i turn violent after dark.