Hatred

i was living in a lie
and so strung out i'd die
and never asking why, in hatred.

i was closer to the ledge
and driving off the edge
but i moved back instead, in hatred.

in hatred.

why? i don't want to exist.
recall when last we kissed.
whatever have i missed? in hatred.
why? i'm living my whole life
at least until tonight
and never knowing why in hatred.