Decadence

you deny that you wanted much.
you would not try to deny my touch.
you were screaming that i play too rough
and then you said you couldn't get enough.

it's not enough
but you tell me that it's what you want.
it isn't love, what am i thinking of?

and now i think that i've been led astray.
i guess i'd never want to be that way.
your sickened radiance. i hate my decadence.
old and turning grey. i've got to get away.

you deny that my fingers could
i never knew the knife could feel so good
i never know what you've been thinking of
'cause that's how we express our dying love.

it's not enough but you tell me that it's what you want.
i've raised the bar. now tell me who you are.

and now i feel like i've been led astray.
i thought i'd never want to feel this way.
your poisoned hate fragrance. i hate my decadence.
sick of new escapes. i've got to get away.

you deny that you want to feel.
i never knew that i could be so real.
alone and twisting in my new debris.
don't know what you love but it isn't me.

i cannot see. don't you tell me that you won't believe
everything in my sincerity.
and now i know that i've been led astray.
i thought i'd never need to feel this way.
your ashen repugnance. i hate my decadence.
falling for mistakes. i've got to get away.